I’ve made an important life decision. And now that I’ve done so, I’m letting it absorb. Do I truly feel as though that’s the direction my life should go? I haven’t rejected it outright at least, so no buyer’s remorse yet.

I had to make it real though. That’s the only way you’ll know if you truly want it or not. I told my parents and one coworker. Now that I’ve done so, I’m anxious. Am I anxious about my unknown future, or about whether it’s something I truly want to do? I am definitely apprehensive about investing years into something that might not work out. That won’t happen though. I know my strengths and I know I can make it work.

I don’t have anything left to lose. I’m not the type of person who can just go through life being comfortable. I need to find the next challenge. I need to have something to work towards. I need to feel like I’m alive. I have what it takes to add spice to life and make it interesting. I’ve done it again and again. I just need to focus my effort.

I don’t know if this is the right course of action. I do know that staying where I am is a showstopper. I’ve been down that road and I know exactly where it leads. I want to contribute something back to the world related to my passions, and I am willing to risk it all to make it happen.